New experience

My college provides many resources for the students and I was very interested in seeing a psychologist for counseling. I was interested in seeing a psychologist because I believe that I have many issues in my life that I need to talk about. My mom had mentioned to me in the first weeks of school that I should check the counseling department out and see what it’s all about. That is when it hit me. On Tuesday September 16, 2008 I decided to make an appointment to go see a psychologist for counseling. When the time came I was very nervous. I was so nervous I was shaking and felt my heart beating one hundred times per minute. Before I was seen I was asked to fill out liability papers. I was also given a list of different problems such as; fear, anxiety, depression, where I had to number them from 1-4 on what I believed to be what was most common. When I finally saw the psychologist she had asked me if I would mind being videotaped because she was an intern. I didn't know what to say at the time or if I should be telling some stranger everything I feel and what I'm going through. It was a very awkward moment for me because I had never gone to counseling before. This whole new experience was very different. I began to express myself in a way I never believed I could express myself. As I was expressing my problems I began to cry. As hard as it was for me to hold my tears in I couldn't. When the session finally ended I felt different. After the session I felt relieved that I was able to talk to someone about my feelings.